Wednesday 13 September 2017

Jake

I have a pet snake
I’ve named him Jake
People call him my imagination, my wild creation
But I can’t create a snake you see
It always existed, just not with me
I don’t know the exact date he crawled into my room
But I think he was there much before I noticed him
So for the past one year
Jake has been my friend, my companion, my peer
I was scared of him initially
I thought he was here to kill me
But a few days later I realised his real name was depression indeed
I still call him Jake, makes me feel less scared
Now Jake is a great companion,
But there are a few things I need to take care of
He hates people
He hides under the bed if someone comes in my room
And I can cry and plead and show them scars of his activities
But he doesn’t come out and they don’t believe me
I try to tell people that Jake doesn’t want me hanging out with them
But as soon as I begin a conversation, he peeps up at me and crawls on my arm
He goes through my elbow and sits around like a bracelet
And behind my back, he ties both my wrists
So I keep wiggling and juggling and screaming at night
But Jake doesn’t let go of me, he has held me tight
When his anger started leaving scars
On my neck and my arms
He tried the flirtatious way
He sways when he walks
And he’s Satan when he talks
He licked me once all night
And made me feel snug under the soft velvet of his skin
That night onward he loves me each night
And tells me to beware of strangers on phone
On face
In life
To beware of friends
Of family
Of people
He made me realize that I have no one else but him
He wraps himself around my ankle
Every time someone invites me to a party
 He begs me not to leave the bed
To come back and make love to him
To lie in bed and have a day off
Even if I do take him out
He keeps pricking my ankle
The back of neck
My belly
Until I don’t get home
And then he bites me
Constantly
At home
When no one is looking
So no one knows.
But other than all these things, Jake is a darling
He’s long, dark and handsome
With blue eyes and a magical tongue
He’s also my best friend now
We lie together for hours
He caresses my hair
And looks into my eyes
He licks my neck
And kisses my thighs
He’s been here for me when everyone left
And he promises to stay for as long as he can
This pet snake has tamed me
I just try to not make him angry
Coz then he blames me
For leaving him under the bed alone and getting out
For taking out my old paint brushes and painting a bright sun or a white cloud
So I put away the paints
And got removed all the lights
Now Jake and I lie
In darkness every night
We make plans of our future
He still hasn’t showed tendencies of killing me
But he’s going to be there with me
Leaving red marks on my neck every day
And making my wrists bleed once in a while
We’re going to be together for long
He’ll sit on my bed if someone comes into my room
And try to prick them away until they go out
His slender body and velvet skin
Will wrap me in
He’s promised.
I’m afraid I can’t invite you to meet him
Because although I’m telling the truth, you can’t see him
And I will cry and plead and wail
And once again you’ll smile and say it’ll be okay.